Gerard gripped her hand tightly, loving this moment although it had come far earlier than expected. Her face twisted into a look of agony and pain. A shallow scream escaped her slightly pale lips, her eyebrows furrowed.
"It's ok Ashlyn, keep going," Gerard whispered in her ear.
Ashlyn's long dark hair hung slightly in her face, as she whined out words to make her mother cry - words she had never spoken in front of Gerard.
Ashlyn DeNair, age 17. She was the average girl, decent in school, had some friends, and usually obeyed her parents' rules. Beautiful green eyes, natural chalky skin. She had many abilities, especially in writing.
Gerard Way, age 17. Basically average as well. The quiet kid who sat in the back of the classroom, drawing in his notebook or on the blank side of a worksheet. Black hair, hazel eyes, slightly tan. Gerard loved to make people smile. He was the introverted artist, that everyone saw but nobody knew.
The most important thing about each of them was that they loved each other.
Gerard and Ashlyn had met way 'back in the day', some would refer to it as. The times of sandboxes and getting your first bike with training wheeles. They were the classic best friends everyone knew would end up together. They learned to read together, and in fact, Gerard lost his first tooth when Ashlyn accidentally kicked him in the face while she was on the swingset in first grade. They rarely had disagreements, and when they did they worked it out quickly.
So here they were, both 17 and young. Ashlyn, having Gerard's baby. Unplanned.
Although they were both incredibly young, this was the most meaningful moment of either of their lives. This wasn't some stupidcouple ofmonths relationship that led to teen pregnancy, they were certainly meant for each other, as tacky as it sounds.
Their parents obviously were a bit astounded when they hadheard that Ashlyn was pregnant, and it was Gerard's. They weren't angry, but more worried. Either way, they were happy for both of them although they truely had wished this could have waited further on into the future.
Ashlyn panted louder and harder, squeezing Gerard's hand until until it grew white, and felt like bursting.
"I can see the head," the doctor stated, shortly following that came more cries out of Ashlyn's mouth.
"It's okay Baby, I'm here. You can do this," Gerard kissed her slightly sweaty forehead.
There was one precaution to this whole 'picture perfect' scene. A life changing thing other than the child that would be entering the world. A new life would be formed, but a pre-existent one may be taken. And that's what hurt Gerard the most.
Due to the fact Ashlyn was so young, and partially because of medical history, they didn't know if she would be stong enough to make it through the whole birthing process. Gerard hoped and prayed night after night since he heard this. The words rang in his mind as a few more cries squealed out of his lover.
"We have some evidence that shows... there isa chance Ashlyn won't, she wont make it."
Gerard shook the thought from his head. She was going to make it, if his life depended on it.
"It's coming," the doctor in green continued, as Gerard moved some of Ashlyn's hair out of her face, and wiped the sweat from her smooth skin.
"Ashlyn, just a few more pushes, it's almost through," the doctor said, trying to assure her she could do this.
Gerard felt her body tense as she pushed a good four more times. Her breathing turned into what sounded like hyperventalation.
"One more Ashlyn, one more," another doctor said. Ashlyn gained her breath, and biting her nails into Gerard's arm, she did it.
"And here we have it folks, a baby girl," The baby was handed to another doctor to be cleaned off.
"You did it Babe," Gerard had tears in his eyes, "we have a baby."
Ashlyn smiled, as Gerard kissed her. Soon, one of the many doctors returned to them with the baby in arms, and handed it to Ashlyn, gently.
The baby had his father's nose, and color-clash of both parent's eyes, forming a green-blue color. Ashlyn rested her head on Gerard's shoulder. Gerard looked at the baby in front of him, thinking to himself I helped make that.
The baby rested in his mother's arms. Gerard kissed Ashlyn on the cheek.
"I told you you'd be alright, I knew you could do this,"his voice broke slowly as he said this, and tears freely slipped down his face, as did Ashlyn's. Ashlyn held the baby out to Gerard, who greatfully took it, being careful and slow as he did so, as if it were the most precious thing he would ever touch.
"Hi," he whispered smiling down at the barely awake infant. It made quiet sounds in response to the voice of it's father.
"I'm your daddy," Gerard said, smiling. The baby made a slightly loud squeal like sound, that sounded happy, not tired or upset. Ashlyn watched as her two favorite people "conversed."
Soon enough, the baby was taken to go with the other newborns of the hospital. Gerard stayed by the side of his girlfriend. She looked incredibly tired. After a few moments a doctor came back in the room, asking to speak with Gerard in the hallway. Gerard looked a bit shocked, but he nodded a proceeded to the hall.
"The child birth went amazingly well and better than expected. Congradulations." the man in green started the conversation with.
"I know, and thank you," Gerard smiled.
"But the war isn't over yet Gerard," the doctor continued. Gerard looked confused.
"She made it through having the baby... but her heart rate is drastically low, and lowering all the time. She's weak.. and there's a chance, still she might not-" Gerard interrupted.
"But no..she can't. I love her.. and the baby and and and,"
"Gerard,theres a decent chance she wont make it through the next twenty minutes. I'm sorry.. I.." the doctor saw the look in Gerard's eyes that was crushed and beaten. He hated is job now more than ever.
"I wish I could do something... just, go in there with her. Enjoy what time you have." Gerard nodded - unable to speak.He quietly slipped back into her room, where he got a good glimpse of her that he hadn't noticed earlier.
Her face was paler than usual, her breathing was short and shallow. Gerard tried to cover the tears slipping out of his eyes with a smile.
"Hey Babe," Gerard whispered, nearing her bed.
"Hey Gerard," she whispered back. He wrapped his arms around her weak body and kissed her.
"Gerard. I know that you know. I'm weak, and I'm tired, and I know whats going on as well. You don't have to play happy for me," She whispered into his ear. Gerard held his quivvering lips together to avoid any whimpering. He didn't want to upset her.
"You can't leave me," Gerard said, staring into her weak eyes.
"It's my time. I sound like a lame horror movie I know, but it is. It was designed to be this way. Please just be happy that we have a beautiful baby, because I know I am. I will be with you Gerard, even if I'm not physically there," she whispered again. Gerard nodded - he would do anything for her. More tears flowed out of his eyes.
He rubbed his nose, and looked at his feet, as he began to speak, "I wrote something for you.. I guess now would be a good time to give it to you," his voice broke a little again. He took a few deep breaths and started singing. Singing, another one of his talents.
"Hand in mine into your icey blues, and then I'd say to you we could take to the highway. With this trunk of ammunition too, I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets...." he continued singing, and although his voice was weak from his tears, it was still beautiful. He watched Ashlyn smile as he continued, and he couldn't help but smile back. He wanted her last visions of him to be good. Her eyes slowly dropped, and he saw the heart monitor slow down, but he tried not to think about it. He just continued for her, she'd always wanted him to write her song and now she had it. After a few more moments the heart monitor slowed down more.
"I mean this, forever,"he ended the song. Ashlyn still smiling.
"Thank you. I love your voice. I also love you, and our baby."
"I love you t-. Too. I promise I'll take care of our her. the baby I mean."
" I know you will. I love you Gerard. I'm always here with....you" the last word barely came out, and the heart monitor screamed the tradgedy to hospital occupants. Gerard's lip quivvered and turned into a frown like a toddler who's just fallen off their tricycle. The next few moments were a blur. Doctors and heart shockers, tears and screams. There wasn't hope. She was gone.


Demolition Lovers - MY Chemical Romance

Hand in mine, into your icy blues
And then I'd say to you we could take to the highway
With this trunk of ammunition too
I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and
I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running
But this time, I mean it
I'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we grow cold
Until the end, until this pool of blood
Until this, I mean this, I mean this
Until the end of...
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold
But this time, we'll show them
We'll show them all how much we mean
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of every...
All we are, all we are is bullets I mean this
All we are, all we are is bullets I mean this
All we are, all we are is bullets I mean this
All we are, all we are is bullets I mean this
As lead rains, and pass on through
Our phantoms, forever, forever
Like scarecrows, that fuel this flame
We're burning, forever, and ever
Know how much I want to show you you're the only one
Like a bed of roses there's a dozen reasons in this gun
And as we're falling down
And in this pool of blood
And as we're touching hands
And as we're fallin down
And in this pool of blood
And as we're fallin down
I see your eyes
And in this pool of blood
I'll meet your eyes...
I mean this, forever